Why you Will Always Crawl Back To Goddess (The sub cycle pt. 3. serious D/s edition.)

Hello everyone, it’s been like a year since I’ve posted a Blog. Can you believe it? Goddess has been extremely busy and writing unfortunately wasn’t one of My main Focuses and it had to go on the back burner. I’ve received so many messages from so many of you telling Me how much you have missed My Blogs, and today, I finally have one for you. This Blog is a good one, not just because it’s about Me, but because it explains a lot about how your subby minds function, and how they react to being in My Presence. Are you curious to learn about why your minds and bodies react the way that they do? Why is it that you crave to be played with? And why exactly is it that you can’t shake the desire to be close too Me? And even though you have these submissive desires, why is it that some of you find it so hard to accept to accept who you really are? This Blog is a serious D/s edition, the toy edition will follow next week!) Well, after My extremely long Writing hiatus… Let’s get into the Blog.

Here you are, some of you for the first time, while the rest of you find yourselves back here again, ready to hang onto each and every one of My Words. And if you’re new here, you’re soon going to be in the same position as the others… That is, if you continue to explore and read My Amazing Words and insights on the Lifestyle. My Words will stick with you long after you have left My Page. This is why so many you always find yourselves thinking about Me… Thinking about My Words, craving Me… And painfully aching for Me. Goddess knows your mind better than anyOne else… I even know your mind better than you do… Keep reading to learn about why your submissive mind works the way that it does.

For those of you who have played with Goddess before… From the very first moment that we interacted, Goddess slid inside and ingrained Myself into your mind. I’ve imprinted Myself into the deepest and darkest corners. you have forever been marked and changed by Me. you might’ve not know this before, but you do now. I’m always with you, even when you think I’m not. I influence you daily. I have conditioned you, I have trained you, I have manipulated, programmed, rewired and moulded you into the person and the sub that are today.

I know some of you have been lurking around for a while now, you’ve been contemplating approaching Me but you always end up being too scared to take the plunge. you lurk around in the shadows just feel the Power radiating off of My Perfect Body and through My Brilliant Words pouring off of the screen. I also know that many of you reading this right now, have served Me at some point in some capacity… you are also here lurking, but at the same time you are teetering on the edge contemplating crawling back to Me, because you know how good it feels to be Mine, to make Me feel good, to be of use and to be in My Life. you can’t stop thinking about how it feels to be called My good boy. you know that there is nothing more amazing in life than giving up control and being dominated and mindfucked by an Authentic Powerful Goddess. A Goddess Who truly enjoys, understands, embraces and gets off on this Lifestyle. Goddess is irreplaceable. No matter what you do, and no matter how hard you try, nothing will ever fill the void that you feel when you’re not adding to My Life.

So what keeps holding you back?

Is it your fear of commitment? Hmm? Does it scare you to be devoted to one Domme and only one Domme after years of whoring and hopping around? Are you scared to give up your community sub title? No, it’s not really that is it? Hmm… Maybe, it’s because before Goddess you never thought that serving only one Domme was possible. But when you met Goddess… Everything changed, and everything became so much more intense, and real. And the realness is what scares you… But at the same time it also keeps you coming back, because you just can’t find that level of connection and understanding anywhere else.

Is it just the fear or commitment? Or… Perhaps, committing your life to Goddess also brings up the fear of not being labelled and seen as a “normal” person in society.

you worry…

“Are these feelings normal?”

“Am I not normal?”

By hopping around from Domme to Domme, you think that can turn your subby behavior on and off whenever you feel like it. At least that’s what you try to convince yourself. It’s makes the reality of who you are less real to you. If you can pick and choose when you want to submit, then you still feel like you have some control over your life. It’s really hard for some of you to accept that you were born to be subs. So when the perfect Goddess comes into your life and brings that side out of you stronger than ever before, things start to become very real… Because suddenly you no longer want to hop… you no longer want to turn it off either. And that’s when you begin to realize that you are no longer in control.

Are you really going to let losing control hold you back from true happiness? Wouldn’t it just be easier to accept your fate? Yes, it’s common, many of you fear completely letting go and giving in to One Goddess… Even when you know that Goddess that can make you feel so weak and do things to your mind and body that you never though were possible. Goddess can make even the most simple things so intense. With Goddess everything feels like pure bliss. you’re floating across sub space unsure of where things will go next but you know as long as you are with Goddess any outcome will be amazing.

So… Let’s discuss why some of you run when your D/s relationship gets too “real.”

By sacrificing and committing your life to Goddess, it changes your life’s path to a road less travelled. your servitude is no longer selective, and now you are traveling down a “non-traditional” path, one with an unknown destination. And that scares you. Why? Because the traditional path is the path that was hammered into our brains by society our entire lives. What really scares you, is the fear of the unknown, when you change your life’s course it starts heading down a completely new path.

So, what does this new life look like?

No two subs paths are identical. Every subs journey is different. So the thought of going all in and fully embracing/accepting your submissive side can be overwhelming. Sometimes not knowing, and not having all the answers immediately, can create a lot of self doubt, and as a result many of you may begin to self-sabotage. you may also feel conflicted because according to “vanilla” society this type of life isn’t what should make you happy…

But it does.

And you can’t change it, no matter how hard you try. you shouldn’t feel conflict because there’s nothing wrong with being a sub. Being a sub is who you are, it comes so naturally. And that’s why you keep coming back. This is who you are. And even though you want to come back, and even if you do come back, many of you still can’t seem to ignore or turn off the nagging voice in your head that’s telling you that this isn’t right, and that it isn’t normal. That nagging voice, keeps telling you that you need to ignore your submissive nature and stay on the “traditional path.” Yes, it can be hard to ignore that voice, especially when deep down you want to be doing the opposite. you really do want to submit and commit to Goddess. But by doing so you would be completely diverting yourself from the traditional path of what a mans life “should” look like. But honestly, trying to force yourself to stay on the traditional path just makes you a hypocrite and a coward, because you were NEVER a “traditional man” to begin with. you’ve gladly done so many “not normal” things to please Me, and you can’t deny how much enjoyment resulted from it. your tastes are far from “traditional.” It’s time to face it, the “traditional” path is outdated, and it never was meant for you. It’s not a one size fits all… Plus, if you want to look at the positives, so many things that have changed in the last 100 years and continue to change. Consider yourself ahead of times. hehe.

Remember, there is no such thing as “normal.”

you need to learn to stop worrying about whats “normal.” you shouldn’t feel ashamed of who you are and what makes you feel good, especially if it doesn’t hurt anybody else. What hurts you, is putting on an act, and trying to convince yourself that you are “normal,” when in reality, it only suffocates you and it also makes you miserable.

Don’t you think it’s strange that you have no problem submitting and being all in with Goddess when you are interacting and playing with Me? When you’re with Goddess, the rest of the World beings to slip away. All the noisy thoughts invading your head disappear. Goddess becomes your thoughts and your Entire World. Everything feels right with Goddess. And our connection and dynamic comes so naturally too… The doubts only tend to sink in after the fact, when you’re alone with your thoughts. When you don’t have Goddess’s Attention... And when you don’t have Goddess to think for you either. A lot of the time the self sabotage is out of pure selfishness. selfishness is not a good trait for any sub to have, this is something that you must learn to reduce, and yes, I can teach you. But you must be patient. Goddess can not be physically by your side 24/7. I know, that being left alone with your thoughts can be overwhelming. Especially when, for the first time in your life, you can actually see yourself Worshipping Me for the rest of your Life. It just feels so right. But still, you begin to question everything. you begin to spiral (not in the good way) and you allow the outdated societal pressures and norms to creep into your mind, which only creates self and doubt holds you back. you begin question if being a sub is right. you allow these intrusive thoughts to destroy your happiness over and over, even though you know that diverting back to a “normal/traditional” life path will bring you misery. And that’s exactly why you’re stuck in this never ending cycle.

So how do you end this cycle once and for all?

First of all when you are having doubts communicate them in calm matter to your Goddess. Communication is key.

If you keep running and denying who you are, and Where you belong over and over, you will only end up wasting your life and you will ultimately end up being miserable.

Ask yourself… “Does being “normal” actually make me happy?”

Of course not! It must be exhausting masking daily pretending to be someone that you’re not. That’s why, you always end up back here. That’s why you find yourself lurking around even though you’re supposedly off living a “normal” life. But was your life ever really “normal?” Of course not… you still have your submissive thoughts, and of course those moments of “weakness.” you always end up caving and trying to fill the void. you try to chase the highs that you once felt with Goddess elsewhere… you consider crawling back to Goddess but most of the time, you always end up doing something stupid. you think that you can make all those thoughts about Goddess go away with a quick fix. you find yourself pursuing cheap easy thrills that require no commitment. For some stupid reason you think that it’s “safer.” But it’s not. you always end up disappointed and feeling worse about yourself than you did in the first place. Sure for a moment everything feels exciting, and then theres the drop off… And reality hits. Those empty interactions, they will never fill the void.

Actually, it only causes the void to grow…

So, you tell yourself that you’ll never do this again… you tell yourself that you don’t need this. But before you know it you’re feeling weak again, so you start chasing the next easy thrill, hoping that it will end differently this time, hoping that you will find something that comes close to the way that you felt with Goddess. But of course nothing ever will. No matter how hard you try to chase those highs elsewhere, you never quite reach them, because you can only ever feel that way with Me. Nobody else will ever come close to Goddess. If you continue on this path, one day you will wake up and realize that you never truly lived your life at all. you threw years away pretending to be someone that you’re not. That sounds horrible doesn’t it? Wasting your entire life suppressing who you are… Constantly feeling like you’re fighting an uphill battle. It won’t make you happy. It will only exhaust you. Just admit it, you’re at your happiest when you’re being a good boy for Goddess. (For more insight on this topic see My How subs achieve post nut Purpose Vs. post nut clarity. (Aka regret.) blog post.)

When you have the amazing opportunity to spend your life in bliss, all while fulfilling your Purpose, and being of use to your Amazing Goddess why wouldn’t you do it? Misery is a choice. So, if you learn to silence the destructive thoughts, and finally accept who you are, and your place in life, you can finally start living. Oh, you don’t know how to do that? Of course you don’t. That’s why you need Goddess’s Guidance. you’re incapable on your own.

you were born to serve not to lead.

So let go. And don’t worry, Goddess can teach you how to let go… It won’t be that scary. Goddess can also teach you how to trust, and how to be the best good boy. you’ll see. I have My Methods. I will guide you and show you how to finally let go of everything that has ever held you back from where you know you are supposed to be. With Me, pleasing Me, and serving Me.

Do you feel that?

you feel yourself being drawn closer to Me again, don’t you? That magnetic pull never really went away did it? you can try to ignore it… But it’s always there. Once drawn to Goddess, always drawn to Goddess. Think… Think about a time when you were truly happy, a time when you felt useful, a time when you felt like you had a Purpose in life… A time when you were more motivated than you ever had been before…. A time when you felt yourself growing, you were thriving at work, and actually happy with yourself and the direction of your life outside of work. If you have served Me before, you can’t even deny it…. you were at your best when you were serving Me. your life had Purpose. (Me) If you’re serving Me currently you know there are no truer words. Waking up every morning you think of Me, while you’re working all day, you think of Me, when you’re driving home from work you think of Me, when you get home, you think of Me, when you’re with your friends and family you think of Me, before you go to bed, you think of Me, and when you’re sleeping? you dream of Me. Goddess encompasses your entire being. How Goddess makes you feel, really can’t be put into words, but you know… you know you need this feeling, and most importantly you know you that you need Me.

So many of you have been in and out of My Life, sometimes a few days pass, sometimes a few weeks, even months and in extreme cases a year or more will pass by before you come crawling back with your tail between your legs. Crazy right? who could possibly stay away from Goddess for over a year? That’s the thing… Even if we haven’t communicated for x amount of time, I’m always with you, it’s impossible to forget your Purpose. your mind and body just can’t forget how Goddess makes you feel. The build ups, the explosions, the sacrifice, the fuzzy buzzy goodness of it all… Trying to fight who you are, is beyond stupid. All you’re doing is hurting yourself. If you’re a masochist, I guess you’re doing yourself a favour on some level… But the reality is that you’re missing out. you’re missing out on being in Goddess’s Life and living the life you were meant to live. you aren’t really living at all when you’re in denial about who you really are.

So here you are, lurking in the shadows once again, you’re trying to get even just the smallest glimpse into My Life without you. you’re trying to feel My Words as if I were speaking Them to you… And you’re hoping that you’re at a safe enough distance to not fall back into everything. But all you’re doing is torturing yourself, because you can never ever get enough of Goddess, you’re always craving more. you need more. It’s like a hunger that can never be satisfied. Goddess is your oxygen, your sustenance, your colour, What drives you, and Goddess is your spark in life.

If you think that you’re being strong by resisting your desire to submit to Me. Well… The thing is about resistance is… What is it that they say? Oh that’s right. Resistance is futile. If you’re too stupid to understand what that means, let Me dumb it down for you. Resisting Goddess and the magnetic pull that you feel towards Me, is pointless. At some point that resistance is going to wear down to the point where it’s paper thin… and then it will tear, and completely disintegrate. Before you even know it you will be crawling back to Goddess with your tail between your legs, hoping that there’s a chance that I will allow you back into My Life.

Do you really think that Goddess will take back every moron who tries to come running back to Me?

Do you think I desire to have flakey inconsistent subs in My Life? I don’t. Being in My Life is a Privilege. I don’t owe you anything. Privileges must be earned. So, if you’re one of those morons who are flakier that a puff pastry…. Guess what? There will be a point where I just don’t want to deal with you anymore. Goddess deserves the best. I deserve consistency and stability when it comes to My subs. I deserve a stress free Life. And what do I mean by consistency?

I mean I deserve a good boy.

Yes, you will have bad days, you are human after all. But no you will not take them out on Me. When you have your bad days, you will communicate it, and I will allow you to take a breather. I don’t want a headache or negativity weighing Me down. I also don’t want a sub who is constantly conflicted, fighting who they are. A sub who constantly ghosts and reappears when they just can’t stay away any longer is predictable and annoying. I know your patterns, and I know that you will always come back. Behaviour like this is just exhausting and it’s not worth My Time or Energy. I value My Time and Energy and so should you.

The subs who I truly accept and allow into My Life have a special place in My Life…

And if any of those subs start to take that special place for granted one too many times, that’s on them. That will be the end of them. I truly do care for My owned subs, I want to see them grow as subs and as people. I don’t want to destroy them and take everything from them. I don’t want to leave them with nothing for solely for My Own Benefit. I believe an owned sub is a sub that I can see having lifetime commitment with. An owned sub/a collared sub, should be treated with the same seriousness as a marriage. Therefore I do not just “own” any sub. A collar must be earned. (Will I play with other subs as toys? Sure if the connection is right. Not all subs can serve at the same capacity. Plus I don’t want to own every sub, that sounds exhausting)

Believe it or not… There is actually a healthy way to have a sustainable D/s relationship… But it’s impossible to have a healthy sustainable D/s relationship when the sub never truly learns to accept their place, or to trust their Goddess. So if you were an owned sub of Mine, who screwed everything up, then you really messed up beyond words. you had something only thousands of other subs have dreamed of, and you threw that all away for what? idiot.

“But Goddess i’ve been hurt in the past…”

Look, I don’t care who screwed you over in the past , they are irrelevant. they are not Me. I only care about Me. If you were dumb enough to let go and be vulnerable with the wrong person that’s on you, it’s not My Problem. your stupid actions should not affect Me or how you treat Me. you’re the idiot for thinking with your dick and letting the wrong person take advantage of you when you were at your weakest. you chose that path. But when you are in Goddess’s Life, you need to learn to forget your past, and focus on building something new, meaningful and real. you can only do this over time, because trust isn’t built overnight. Stop rushing, breathe and let things come naturally. That’s all I can say about that. hehe.

So where was I before I went off on the commitment tangent… Right, I was talking about resistance and how it wears off. Resistance or the lack thereof, is why you will always come back to Me. Resistance isn’t permanent, it will always thin down and eventually crumble. It’s impossible resist Goddess forever. And if you are a sub who hasn’t served Me before? The resistance that you are trying to hold onto right now? That will eventually break too. Why you ask? Well… Because there is something deep down inside of you that knows that this is where you are supposed to be. Why else would you be here right now? Why would you be here instead of anywhere else right now? you are drawn to Me at some capacity, you have some curiosity, and that pull and that curiosity, will only grow even stronger the longer that you consume My Words, My Voice and My Content. So whether you have served Me in the past, or if you have just stumbled across My Page and My Content…

Eventually your resistance will wear out.

Even just reading this blog has already shaved down some of your resistance. Imagine coming all the way here and reading this entire blog (or listening to it), just to realize that Goddess is now inside your head and awakening parts of you that you didn’t even know existed. Yeah, I know… I’m that Amazing. I had you thinking this Blog was only about the subs who always crawl back to Me. But no… This Blog was also used as a tool to wear your resistance down as well. So now that your resistance has already worn thinner… And now that My Words have already seeped into your subby brain, where will you go from here? Will you continue to lurk and consume My content, until one day you can’t resist Me any longer? Or will you accept who you are, and let things progress naturally? Will you finally come out of the shadows and present yourself humbly to Me? Will you take that step that for some stupid reason you have been holding back on? Well that’s up to you… Regardless the outcome will always be the same… Eventually you will break, and you will find yourself crawling to Me, because you know there is nothing you need more in this life than to feel actual Purpose and to be of use… you crave to be trained and rewired to become the best sub and person that you can be… So, when exactly is that day coming? When will you finally let go? That’s on you. Goddess has better things to do than chase you around. I’m thriving without you, and honestly, I probably don’t even know that you exist in the first place. Unless you’re adding to My Life, I really don’t care. So if you want to be known, and if you want to explore submission and feel what you were always meant to feel, you know what to do… And if you are contemplating crawling back to Me, even if you fear rejection… you might as well do it now, because your resistance is going to wear out before you know it. It’s better that you do it now and get it over with instead of long after you wasted your entire life being miserable.

Talk soon…. Obviously.

Goddess Liv